Absolutely agree. Have sought out advice from probably a dozen people over the last two years. Even wrote a "not sure I can do this anymore?" article in February but deleted it.
It's one of the reasons I've left the paywall down for 6+ months now. I think I've added exactly one new subscriber in 2023, and when I got that email my first reaction was "come on, I don't deserve that."
But I don't see a path around, only through. So I'll keep writing these until I find my way through (or quit). If along the way I lose your (large) group of Illini friends, I lose your (large) group of Illini friends.